“I am your God and will take care of you until you are old and your hair is grey. I made you and will care for you; i will give you help and rescue you” (Isaiah 46:4, GNBUK)
Wow, what a comforting verse. God is my Creator and He will take care for me.
I had lingering dizziness which goes on and off for the last couple of weeks. It has been frustrating because it limits my usual daily activities which i enjoy tremendously. I also need to be careful when taking a shower or bending down to play with my pets.
Now that the giddiness is gone, one lesson remains: to surrender to God fully.
I was told that one of the reasons for my dizziness might be the stresses that i was carrying in my body. At first, i brushed this “theory” aside: i thought i was eating well and sleeping well. I am generally a happy person, how can i be stressed out?
But over the past couple of days, i examined myself: are there really stresses that i am holding on to and yet i do not realize it? Indeed there. There is the future to worry about, the long list of to-do items and much to think about. I then talk to myself, reassuring myself that i am doing my best for the things i can do and for the things i can not do, i let go and surrender them to God. After all, God cares for me. Time and time again He shows that He is my Heavenly Father who provides for all that i need. He never abandoned me — I can trust completely upon Him. For the things which I can not control, He knows best and He is in control.
This episode of dizziness re-examines my relationship with God, my Heavenly Father. I preach in church and lead prayer meetings, i visit and pray for the sick but do i have an intimate and personal relationship with Him? Or have i been treating Him like my employer (because i am in full-time ministry) instead of my Heavenly Father? I am also learning to take care of my body. It is only when i am getting older that i realise i should take better care of my health. By honouring my body and caring for it, i am honouring God, my creator.
These self-examinations and rest time bring me closer to God: i experienced His healing grace, and experienced the love of my friends who care for me. Life is good. God is good. I can leave my worries and anxieties to God, knowing that He will take care of me and all that i care about.
